can't understand

- I mean, how alone he must have felt really and truly to do that. For him to feel that it was a viable alternative. It doesn't make sense. I can't understand it, you know? I mean, what an idiot! What an honest to God. Is honestly sometimes how I feel about it. How it feels, you know? I mean, stop trying to make yourself the centre of your own misfortune. You have an amazing wife. She loves you. So I don't know what any of it, or why any of it.
- You've gone quiet again.
- So have you.